In this piece, Mercy Survivor Sarah follows up from her previous piece on reviewing her client file.  The original piece was published on her personal blog and can be viewed at Sarah’s Collage.

I was surprised by my emotional response upon seeing the second batch of my file.  I had anticipated that it would be a little more impacting on me than the first lot, but even still I was surprised.

Reading the staff members’ written accounts of the various events, particularly the more traumatic ones, left me with a sense of haunting nostalgia of my grip on reality being hijacked.  Even though I have come to terms with this experience on many levels with the support of God and safe people, I really felt like I did four years ago when I had just finished my 12 month stint in the Sydney home.  That is, mentally stranded between two polar opposite realities and captive to lies.